From saga novel Courtesan Prince by Lynda Williams.
"Will it always be like this?" Ranar asked. "Furtive and frightening? Disguising our love with lies?"
"No," Di Mon assured him, "sometimes it will be worse."
Despite his terror of discovery, Di Mon embraces his homosexual bond with Ranar at the end of Part 1: The Courtesan Prince. But Ranar is slowly grasping things will never be what he'd consider normal between them, either.