From saga novel Far Arena by Lynda Williams.
"I did something I can't accept," said Erien. "I cannot ... convince myself that there wasn't some other way."
"That's the hell of it, kid," said Lurol. "I've been living with that one myself for eighteen years. Regardless of what people say, for and against, in the small hours of the morning it's just you and yourself. You look back at it an you never really do know. Looking at this, though," she nodded at his wounded arm, "I would say you probably didn't have the maneuvering room you think you did."
Erien killed his half-brother D'Lekker in a bad situation, days before the scene. In this scene, Lurol tries to apply her own experience to help her adopted son process his guilt.