From saga novel Far Arena by Lynda Williams.
Erien could readily imagine Tatt stepping out onto the challenge floor, over and over, if Di Mon was accused of what Gelacks considered a vile perversion, risking his life repeatedly, with fiery affection for his late great-uncle, while Monitum's economy took a thrashing with its loss of reputation. How many lives weighed in the balance against Amel's in this dreadful calculus? He wished he could think clearly.
With Amel under pressure to tell all about his Gelack experiences, to a secret-phobic public on Rire, Erien worries about the consequences for Monitum if Di Mon's personal secret is accidentally revealed in the process.